The Inconvenient Nudge (of Your Soul Calling)

Have you ever had a dream to do something but couldn’t see how it was possible?

It feels like just yesterday I was holding a dream in my heart that didn’t feel possible to achieve.

Ever since I can remember I’ve been harbouring a dream to make a difference in people’s lives. I started my working life as a Physiotherapist. However, in that role, I felt so unfulfilled by the influence I was having on people’s health and I yearned to make a bigger difference on a holistic and soul level. In my role as a therapist, it was heart breaking to see so many people affected by end stage chronic disease and I knew that I would be more powerful as a healer if I could support people’s health at a preventative level. After years of working with people’s bodies, I had started to see well beyond the physical body into the esoteric layers of people’s beings and this had stirred my clairvoyance. The medical intuitive in me had started to awaken. I was grateful for the intense motivation I had seen in people striving to recover. I could see the difference between those who would recover and those who wouldn’t. Yet I was lonely, knowing that the mainstream medical profession might never understand or speak my language.

I moved into yoga teaching to satisfy the deep longing I had to support holistic healing and preventative medicine. Deep down, I also felt divinely called to deepen my understanding of my spiritual nature. A heart-shattering relationship breakdown in 2005 had forced an awakening of sorts. Yoga supported me to find a way out of my depression and access more peace. Yoga teaching supported me to finally start making a true difference in preventative health. I truly thought I’d arrived in my calling for life. I enjoyed teaching so many satisfying classes and workshops in Australia, India and Japan. I experienced so much deep joy every time I taught.

It was inconvenient to hear the quiet nudge of a new path opening. It started with the realisation that many of my students (myself included) were being transformed through their yoga practice. As they awakening to their soul’s calling, they were being called to make a positive impact with their lives and to make a difference in the world with their gifts. I was no longer feeling satisfied teaching asana and physiology without an intense inquiry into the nature of what was occurring within. As inconvenient as it was, I was being nudged towards a new path in life. I was also reminded gently of the hundreds of dying patients I had seen quietly accepting that their lives were almost over and that they had never quite lived up to their potential. Or that they’d never quite honoured the small quiet voice of their calling – and that many had even admitted that this had been the true cause of their health breakdown. It was a reminder that propelled me to investigate my new calling – a calling to support women to fulfil their potential through coaching and enquiry.

To be honest it was quite devastating to realise that yoga teaching wasn’t all that life had in store for me. I was trying to support my two young sons as a sole parent and the thought of taking on even more study was daunting. But I knew it would start to impact me negatively if I didn’t listen. The quiet nudges leading me to study coaching offered me an opportunity to take deep enquiry and healing to a new level with people.

The dream I began holding while I was studying at The Coaching Institute was to have a coaching practice that was full of clients I loved working with. Spiritual women, the same kind of women who came through yoga teacher trainings, had always been such a cherished part of my life. I wanted to work with women who were deeply connected to their own truth, to their hearts. I wanted to work with women who cared deeply about the planet and the wellbeing of all beings like I did. Most of all, I wanted to work with bold, gutsy, determined women who didn’t mind stepping outside the box of ‘normal’ to push to the leading edges of where life needs to go sometimes to truly add the extra to ordinary. I wanted to work with spiritual leaders, visionaries and misfits (Miss Fitz) like myself who saw life outside the square. I knew that the world would need these types of women as the patriarchy started to crumble. These are the leaders of the new feminine age.

I had no idea how I was going to create my vision, but I used all my coaching techniques to get started. I took everything I learnt from my own neuroscience lectures and physiology of success studies and used it to create my dream coaching business.

At times sheer terror threatened to stop me. I had delayed buying a house so that I could study coaching. My sons and I had been forced to move 8 times in 8 years as a result of being in a rental market. It had been absolutely exhausting. I took a big risk investing in more training at a time when many of my friends were reaching the peak of their careers. At times I needed to catch my breath. My intuition told me what to do most of the time, and I had amazing coaches to guide and facilitate the rest.

The what-ifs were huge.

What-if I had just invested a five figure sum and all my time and energy to become a coach and I fail? (I couldn’t afford this, my sons needed me to be conservative with our finances or so I told myself)

What-if no one wants to pay for my services? (I convinced myself that this was highly likely after-all I live in one of the highest unemployment areas in Australia)

What-if I can’t deliver what I am committed to delivering?

What-if I don’t have enough time to practice yoga?

At the same time, some new what-ifs were emerging from my own heart

What-if I do succeed at creating a business I love?

What-if I do attract high-calibre women who think outside the box and then get to spend amazing time with them creating their dream businesses?

What-if I do start to see my vision taking shape and to study how the healing happens at the metaphysical level?

What-if I didn’t have to give up my yoga teaching dream or practice, but could weave these two threads harmoniously to live my mission statement?

What-if I could use my clairvoyance and medical intuitive insights to support women to heal their businesses and leave the legacy they’ve always dreamed of?

What if I could leave a legacy through my own business? In this case, I define legacy as being an ever-lasting gift. In my case, this is fuelled by my desire to see equality for women especially mothers.

The most important thing of all, despite all the doubt, was that I knew deep in my bones that my relationship with the divine was supporting me every step of the way. Faith is all about ‘not seeing’ first but trusting anyway. The heroine’s journey is all about those few steps we can sometimes see in front but not knowing what might lie beyond them thus living in faith and uncertainty. It’s not a path for the faint-hearted.

Uncertainty was a choice I’d made previously – so I was well prepared for the heroine’s journey of entrepreneurship. When I left my twelve year relationship, I had the comfort of knowing I’d be provided for economically as my partner and I were heading for a combined income of half a million dollar a year. I was effectively choosing the unknown, economic insecurity, an uncertain future and a massive pay-cut. I could have chosen then to live on my knees in security but I was dying on the inside. I remember my sister reminding me of the words to the midnight oil song: ‘It’s better to die on your feet than to live on your knees’. I chose to live life on my own terms and risk dying on my feet. I’ve been crucified by the choice I made to take 100% responsibility for the direction of my life and I have no regrets because walking through that fire showed me who I really was on the inside – the enduring, infinite aspects of my being beyond this physical realm. It hasn’t been easy and at times it’s been downright inconvenient, but the rewards are huge.

Today, I skip to work.

My coaching practice is full of amazing clients, the kind of clients I always dreamt of working with.

The transformations my clients are having, due to their high levels of awareness and insight, are astounding. The coaching processes I use help to keep them accountable, hold them in love and shine a light that their soul understands to navigate and supercede self-imposed limitations. I’m still learning so much from my clients about love, trust, faith, hope, dreams and intuition. I believe in them and I’m 100% committed to their success.

I have the schedule I always dreamed of having where I can decide which appointment slots are available and how much time I’d like to spend with clients each week.

Instead of having to rush people through 30 minute consultations ( like I used to in other people’s private practices as a Physiotherapist), I choose to spend 90 minutes, sometimes 2 hours with my clients. We get deeper into the mysteries when we spend this length of time together.

As part of my new dream business, I also have the luxury of exercising my favourite love – my love of words, writing my weekly blogs and ezines and writing my books.

I continue my love of yoga by teaching relief classes and keeping my regular home practice as fuel, as nourishment to the soul. It will always be a cherished part of my life.

I also get to live vicariously through my clients whilst each and every one of them represents a dream business I might have loved to have had myself in a parallel universe.

Health and wellness centres, yoga studios, teaching and training businesses, coaching businesses, self-empowerment businesses, public speaking businesses: my clients are creating the kinds of dream businesses that will leave a healing legacy to the people they touch.

18 months after I started my new business I have been able to finally buy a house for my boys and I. We’re about to move and put the heart-wrenchingly unstable 8 years of renting behind us. I never would have had the confidence to do this without the buoyancy and abundance offered to me through my business. I will be forever grateful for overcoming my fear and uncertainty in order to follow my deep bone wisdom and my heart’s longing to somehow make a difference, no matter how small.

To celebrate, I would like to reach out a hand of hope to all of you who might be already in your service based businesses or perhaps just starting out.

See below for details about a free teleclass series I’m running to support you in your business,

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Free Teleclass Series

‘90 Days to Fill Your Practice
with Divine Right Clients (with Feminine Ease)’

I’m running a 3 part series that you can tune into to support you to fill your practice with the kind of clients who make it a dream for you to skip to work for. You don’t need to sacrifice who you are. If you are slightly left of centre, a dreamer, a visionary, a big thinker and someone who thinks outside the square, you’re especially welcome to join me.